Tale of Starshine

Very Purple Person

2011-12-24T12:10:00.000+07:00

Today, i came across one of my sister's bestfriend facebook page, mbak Novitha Estiti. She used to work with my sister as a fashion stylist in one of the most prestigious magazine in Indonesia. Now she lives in Japan with her little adorable family. My sister always said that she's the coolest bestfriend she ever had, and i feel the same. She likes to post these photos about her sewing works in Japan, it always appeared on my home timeline but i haven't had the time to check it. So today when the post appears on my home screen i clicked it, and found the most awesome handmade clothing ever! the cutting and the patterns are unusual and unique, and she sew it all on her own. She's also made cute clothings for her husband and her adorable son Sidra. Do check her page on http://www.facebook.com/novitaestiti

FESTIFRANCE 2011

2011-11-12T17:34:00.002+07:00

It's a common thing in my faculty when students from each department held their own festival. for example, the German department always held KULTURFEST each year, and many other festival from different culture which represented by the language they're learning. but my department, the french, never held one. so this year, pretty much our (class of 2008) last year in college, my friend Saviq decided to make the very first event held by french students and called it FESTIFRANCE. at first some of us was very pessimistic, we yelled and argued towards each other, got a very serious warning from our lecturer (cos they thought that we can't make it) and some of us decided to bailed out cos this event is very stressful. but then, when it happened, tears of joy and happiness came from our eyes. we made it. Me, Nindia, Falia, Atika, Nabila & Fatima were working on the fashion show division. it wasn't easy since we're running low on budget. but we didn't give up, and at the end of the day, we get the most compliment! they said this is the best runway show held in UI so far. they said they never see the room that full before. they said they don't care how much money we asked if the result is as badass as that. i am seriously proud with my team. this wouldn't happened without our teamwork. and i salute the other division too (talk show, music, short movies, ballet dance, exposition, etc) for pulling quite a show too, wouldn't make it without them either. all of the hard work paid off, seeing everybody so happy and so relieved at the end of the show brings happiness tears to my eyes. before the event, i really wished that it'll be over soon. but now, i really miss having the crew around, i miss coming home late cos i have to attend the meeting, i miss running around panicking looking for equipment. it was the sweetest memories before i graduate, and i hope our junior can continued this legacy.

here are some photos from the fashion show event:

(photos courtesy of Bibriyanti Putri and Bagas Tirta)

Bestfriends quotes

2011-10-23T11:38:00.000+07:00

If you are single there is always one thing you should take out with you on a Saturday night... your friends. - sex and the city

no matter who broke your heart, or how long it takes to heal, you'll never get through it without your friends -sex and the city

If there is ever a tomorrow when we are not together there is something you must always remember: you are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem and smarter than you think, but most important of all, even if we are apart, I'll always be with you. - Christopher Robin to Pooh

a girl only needs three things in her life: love to make her weak, alcohol to make her strong, and friends to pick her up when the first two make her hit the ground.

years from now i won't remember every friday night or the things that made us laugh so hard until our stomachs hurt, but i'll always remember that they were the ones who were there

best friends- the ones who's always there to beat up the boys that breaks our heart

Sometimes in a relationship going through hell isn't so bad if you come out of it a little stronger. The same thing is true about friends-Felicity

A friend is someone who understands why you like your strawberry sodas without any strawberries in them -Charlie Brown

A true friend is someone who is there for you when they would rather be someplace else. --Len Wein

It's the people who hug you and never want to let go, the people who you haven't seen for months, but nothing has changed at all, the people who give to you more than you give to them, the people that truly understand who you are, the people who you cry about, the people who you live for, the people in your photographs that have light genuinely shining through their eyes and their smile, the people that take your breath away

No matter how you put it, you're gonna fall, and it's scary as hell, except if theres an upside to free falling, it's the chance you give your friends to catch you -grey's anatomy

friendship means understanding, not agreement. it means forgiveness, not forgetting. it means the memories last, even if contact is lost

You're the peanut to my butter. You're the star to my burst. You're the M to my M&M's. You're the pop to my tart. You're the milky to my way. You're the fruit to my loop. You're the milk to my duds. You're the cocoa to my puffs. You're the ice to my cream but most important you're the best to my friend.

The most important thing in life is your family. There are days you love them, and others you don't. But, in the end, they're the people you always come home to. Sometimes it's the family you're born into and sometimes it's the one you make for yourself -Sex & the City

How do you know you've found your best friend? When you are ready to talk to them about anything even though they know everything about you already.

A good friend knows all your best stories, a best friend has lived them with you

Friendship is like standing on wet cement. The longer you stay, the harder it's to leave, and you can never go without leaving your footprints behind

& with our friendship comes one guarantee- whatever happens to you, happens to me.

You'll always be my best friend, you know too much.

If I had a ticket to heaven, and you didn't have one too, I'd tear my ticket to pieces, and go to hell with you.

It would be childish of us to deny that our lives weren't changing. But for this night, none of us were going anywhere. That's the thing about really good friends and a really great Manhattan. -Sex & the City

Friends forever. What was more important than friends forever? Some people were friends for a moment. Others were friends for a reasons. Then there were friends one had for a lifetime.

True friends are like Chinese take out, they are dependable , enjoyable and just a phone call away

Once upon a time, you and I were best friends. And that means that whenever you need me, I'm here. Any time, anywhere, any place. Forever. -Dawson's Creek

Life is an awful, ugly place to not have a best friend. -Sarah Dessen, Someone Like You

So much has changed and so much has happened these years, but still I find that you are waiting here. We have a bond that nothing can change and still I find a peace of mind whenever I hear your name. And if I seem too quiet, know it’s because there are no words to show you how much I love and cherish you.

We're friends, real friends. And that means, no matter how long it takes, when you finally do decide to look back, I’ll still be here -grey's anatomy

this is the way I see it, good friends offer to help in a crisis, great friends don't take no for an answer. -desperate housewives

Like any other kind of love, friendship can be lost in our lives due to neglect, anger, or sometimes, simply circumstances. However it is lost, we often lose a part of ourselves that can never quite be recovered

Maybe our girlfriends are our soulmates and guys are just people to have fun with --sex and the city

For there is no friend like a sister in calm or stormy weather; to cheer one on the tedious way, to fetch one if one goes astray, to lift one if one totters down, to strengthen while one stands. -Christina Rossett

Big: You girls are the loves of her life, a guy is lucky to come in fourth. -Sex & the City

blank note

2011-10-17T19:21:00.000+07:00

hey you... it's been a long time since we fight like this...
i know you think that i'm being unreasonable and immature
i got jealous over ridiculous thing
i know those girl at that picture means nothing to you
i know you're all just friend
but i didn't know them
we've been in this relationship for so long
and you might expect me to understand
sure i know how you feel about me and i shouldn't questioned it
but at the end of the day, i'm just a girl
a girl who's craving for her lover's attention
a girl who gets paranoid over silly things
a girl who needs her man around just to comfort her
a girl who founds happiness just by holding hands with you
a girl who wants to show the world, how in love we are
a girl who's once said "i don't like public display affection"
but that's a lie, i don't care what people gonna say about us
because what matters the most, is you.

my happy pills

2011-10-16T10:38:00.002+07:00

we're the bridesmaids for tika's wedding!

naah, just kidding! it was actually her sister's, and we're just there to atted the guest book.

but still, it was fun having sleepover with my highschool buds. last time we did this, it was new year 2007.

i do miss these people, there will always be something to talked about everytime we gather round.

i guess it's true what they said, nothing beats highschool friendship.

frankie n moustaches

2011-10-01T01:57:00.000+07:00

Turns out that rizkiansyah had prepared another surprise for me. one of his friend's comin home for a week and he sent my birthday presents thru him. so on Thursday, after a long tiring day at college, i came home and found a brown paper bag on my bed and when i peek thru it, i'm totally speechless. this is the stuffs i found in there:

and this magazine, FRANKIE, i kinda told him already that i like it and wishing he'd bring this for me when he came home later in november. and what do you know, the shipment came early than i've expected.

bottom line, i'm extremely happy. i don't know what to say, this is just beyond sweet. i wuff you soo much, Po :-))

mustache-me

2011-09-24T17:09:00.002+07:00

this morning, Rizkiansyah posted this on my facebook wall :

it came with a message :

"Supposed to be ready two weeks earlier. I'm sory for being late,

Happy birthday dear, i'm sorry if i got many mistakes to you, and hurt your feeling.

I really miss you, hope this funny and dodgy artwork can fix all of that, i love you.

Love to grow old with you. Once again, happy birthday"

i don't know what to say... i'm speechless... this is just too sweet in sort of weird-funny way.

thank you soo much rizkiansyah, you really made my day :')

spring cleaning

2011-09-06T13:23:00.000+07:00

My sister is selling some of her stuff. some of it she'd wore once or twice and some of it she hasn't wear at all. the condition of these stuffs are still good, and it's also affordable. if you're interested to buy some of these stuff, please contact me thru my phone number or blackberry messenger. thank you :)

rubi shoes size 40, Rp 50.000,-

schu shoes size 38-39, Rp 100.000,-

unbranded silk blazer all size but fit to size L, Rp 50.000,-

zara dress size L, Rp 75.000,-

magnolia black vest all size but fit to size L, Rp 50.000,-

red tanktop size S-M, Rp 50.000,-

Legal age, horrayyy

2011-09-06T02:09:00.000+07:00

Today, i turned 21. i was overjoyed, birthday wishes keeps coming from messenger, texts, facebook and twitter since the clock turned 00:00 am. i was surprised by how people even bother to congratulate me, some i know so well, some i even haven't even talk to. it really made my day even more special... and then i went to lunch with kamila. thought it's gonna be just the two of us, but when i came to the restaurant, i saw my highschool friends already sitting there and they started singing happy birthday to me. i was between shocked and happy. and then came the servants of that restaurant and he gave me a bouquet of flowers. then he went to the kitchen and came back with a set of cupcakes n 5 candles and told me to make a wish before i blew the candle. then come another servant bringing me pancakes with candle on it and said it was a compliment from a restaurant. i even get a sewing kit as a present from the restaurant! i was so happy, i didn't expected it! and rizkiansyah keeps texting me about how much he misses me and wished he was here to celebrate my birthday with me. oh, and this morning we had a brief skype session where he lit a candle and stick it to a donut and sang happy birthday and told me to blow the computer screen. i think it was the sweetest thing ever... even thou he can't be here with me, but he still made this day special for me, i feel really happy and thankful today :))

zenbu

2011-08-15T23:25:00.000+07:00

break fasting slash dinner with my arisan girls. haven't seen them in a very long time, i do miss them. i don't know how but my friends are all pretty and they're all not afraid to be silly. they're not uptight and they are sure funny as hell. i guess everytime i met them they always succeed to make me laughed. this is the kind of friendship that will last forever :)

instagram

2011-08-14T20:07:00.002+07:00

Got to play with Nindia's instagram while she and aya was on the set for a nylon's photoshoot. cute apps, i'm lovin it!

all is not lost

2011-08-10T15:57:00.000+07:00

Rizkiansyah posted a link on my facebook wall yesterday, said i should opened it with google chrome. turns out it was OK GO's newest interactive v-clip where you can leave message to someone with the video format. mine says "have a nice day Richa Annisa". you guys should check it out on youtube, really fun! :D

Melissa Chaib

2011-07-25T09:40:00.003+07:00

picture source: www.flickr.com/photos/melissachaib

came across this cute illustration when i was tumblogging this morning. i went to the source page and found many other cute illustration. the person is Melissa Chaib, i don't know who the hell she is but i think she's brilliant! i think she's European, probably french or Italian girl.

it got me thinking, when my wedding day comes, i don't wanna do a pre-wed photos. instead, i wanna hire couple of illustrators such as this Chabib girl, fifi lapin, and other notorious illustrator to illustrate me and my husband's face. how cool is that?

2011-07-23T13:22:00.002+07:00

Last photos i took with rizkiansyah on our way back home after our last date before he flew back to brisbane. i don't know what to say, tears won't stop coming out of my eyes. I thought the second time he's leaving would be easier for me to let go, but it's not. every goodbye with him makes my chest hurts. this month had been really wonderful for both of us. we've been good. we'd gone places, we talked, we laughed, we hugged and we kissed, and now the thought of not being able to do that again for at least another 5 moths really turned my mood down. geez i'm a bit melodramatic right now.. hope i'll be okay next day :)

(apakah) aku cinta indonesia?

2011-07-20T17:55:00.003+07:00

Sangat jarang gue menulis di blog ini menggunakan bahasa indonesia. memang bahasa inggris gue masih level kacrut, namun berhubung isi blog ini kebanyakan curhatan, it feels much more comfortable if i wrote it in english. tapi sekarang yang mau gue tulis bukan curhatan, melainkan keluhan. une autre vue. bukan tentang fashion, seni, atau cinta seperti kebanyakan isi blog ini. tapi kok ya judulnya ada embel-embel "cinta" nya juga? yak, bisa dibilang ini sebuah bentuk keprihatinan dan buah pikiran yang dituangkan dalam tulisan.

Selama ini gue bukan manusia yang ignorant sama kehidupan di Indonesia. bukan berarti gw pernah keliling Indonesia, gue cuman pernah ke Padang (duluuuu banget waktu kecil), Makassar (waktu kecil juga, i could barely remember), Bangka (tiap lebaran dan kerjaannya berantem mulu sm nyokap disana karena disuruh silaturahmi sama sodara sementara gue pengennya ke pantai), Bali dan Bandung. Gue cuman pernah menginjakkan kaki di 5 kota di Indonesia kecuali Jakarta. menurut gue normal, gue punya banyak temen yang bahkan belum pernah menginjakkan kaki keluar pulau Jawa. but that doesn't makes us unaware dengan isu sosial ekonomi dan politik yang terjadi di negara ini. we know. oh, how much we know the dirt of our gouvernement.

justru saking tahunya dengan semua kebusukan pejabat negara ini, gue lebih memilih untuk tutup mata, mulut, hati dan telinga karena kalo makin dipikirin makin geram dan miris, bahkan emosi. tapi nggak tau harus berbuat apa? bisa apa? i am nobody compared to those men sitting in our MPR-DPR building. menurut gue, semua tingkatan dalam pemerintahan Indonesia udah hancur karena korupsi kolusi dan nepotisme. untuk diperbaikin harus dicari bibitnya, tapi bagaikan kanker, udah nggak ketahuan asal muasalnya dimana karena udah menyebar ke seluruh badan. bahkan operasi tercanggih pun udah nggak bisa menyembuhkan "kanker" ini. pilihan satu-satunya hanyalah amputasi (yes, i'm speaking metaphorically here!).

pemikiran yang paling ekstrim yang pernah gue diskusikan dengan rizkiansyah adalah : alangkah baiknya jika negara ini sekali lagi dijajah. lebih seru lagi kalau penjajah kita membawa paham sosialis ke negara ini. jangan ngeri, gue nggak gila, gue bukan komunis. think about it, masa-masa kejayaan indonesia adalah masa orde lama dan awal orde baru, belum genap satu dekade semenjak kemerdekaan Indonesia yang telah dijajah selama 350 tahun lebih. gue sering denger cerita ayah, jaman dulu jarang sekali ada pemalas. walaupun orang cacat atau tua renta, semuanya mau kerja. walaupun harus banting tulang dengan upah minim, mereka tetap bekerja dengan giat. sebelum kemerdekaan mungkin itu sebuah kewajiban yang diharuskan pemerintahan para penjajah yang nggak suka liat orang pribumi leha-leha, tapi toh kebiasaan itu terus berlanjut setelah kemerdekaan dengan motif yang lebih mulia : to live and survive.

Indonesia jaman sekarang sudah terlalu dimanja dengan segala kegampangan yang bisa diperoleh dengan uang. ajaran di sekolah dasarpun sudah menyalahi aturan. gue prihatin, kadang kalo diskusi sama bokap gue suka emosi sendiri. Alhamdulillah gue masih bisa hidup enak sekarang, but along the way in my left and right side gue melihat banyak sekali ketidakadilan. semua karena birokrasi busuk. sering banget gue denger slogan bahwa "masa depan indonesia bergantung di tangan generasi muda indonesia" tapi menurut pengamatan gue, anak-anak seumuran gue (yang mereka bilang generasi muda) cenderung pada menyerah and couldn't wait to get the hell out of Indonesia as soon as they can, begitu juga halnya dengan gue.

Jujur, gue udah terlalu hopeless dan terlalu pesimis dengan masa depan Indonesia. i don't wanna contaminate my (future) child dengan semua kepalsuan, kebusukan, dan ketidakadilan yang terjadi di Indonesia. tapi masih ada setitik perasaan di diri gue yang pengen ngebetulin ini semua, namun nggak tau caranya gimana. at this point i suggest seluruh orang indonesia should pray to God to help us all, well at least for those who believe that He's exist. ironis dan membingungkan untuk gue, sebuah negara yang bisa mengusir penjajah yang bersenjatakan alat-alat canggih hanya dengan menggunakan bambu runcing, keadaannya bisa se-fucked-up ini sekarang. bukannya makin maju malah makin mundur. mau jadi apa?

God, please help us all.....

le sigh

2011-07-05T09:57:00.003+07:00

you know what really irritates me right now? stupidity. and i happened to find that kind of attitude from a very close of mine. let's say her name is S. she's pretty, has a great body, i think she has the total package. but she's too dumb. i don't know whether she's dumb or careless or ignorant, but she makes everyone around her feels annoyed. she cannot take care of herself and let everyone do that for her. i mean, we all have other life outside. we cannot take care of her all the time. she's already a grown-up, she can't expect everyone to tell her what to do and what not to do. what if she didn't have any friends anymore? what would she do? i bet she can't do anything can she? because she's stupid, that's it. sometimes i wished she'd got to taste her own medicine, but i didn't have the heart to watch her falling apart. so please god, please I'm begging you, make her realize that her attitude annoys people, please?

what if

2011-06-29T11:54:00.003+07:00

Rizkiansyah has been in town for couple of days now, and i'm more than happy. when he came to my house to say hi to my parents, the whole house went manic, even my maid. they are all very eager to meet rizkiansyah again. and when he met my mom, mom hugged him. can you believe that? it got me thinking...

3 years is not a very short period in someone's life. 3 years is the amount of time i've been spending with him. for 3 years we had our fights, our tears, and our happy times over and over again. there are moments when i just want to ended it all, i feel like ourrelationship is going nowhere, static, pathetic, bored. but then i remember again all of the happy times we've spent together. our feelings for each other didn't have to be described in words no more. we understand each other. he didn't have to say "i love you" every single night (wich he did) before we went to bed, because i already know. he's my huggly wuggly panda. he's my steady rock. i know.

mom seems so eager to planned out wedding. my brothers and sisters already gave their blessings. so what are we waiting for? well, pretty much everything. both of us hasn't graduate from college yet, hasn't had our income yet, hasn't ready for anything yet. i am 100% ready but i don't know if he did. and now the big question in my head is : which one he's not ready for? to be married or to be with me? does he still having doubts about me? does he still wondering wether if i'm the right girl for me or not? i cannot imagine if i'm wasting the last 3 years (and possibly the next couple of years) to a relationship that's going nowhere. i don't want to wait. i will wait if i know the result is worth it, but i don't want to wait with a dissappointing ending. does he ready? does he want me? what if he doesn't?

my sister

2011-06-26T10:27:00.003+07:00

after seeing my previous works (of me and kamila) my sister wants me to take her photos too. so yesterday we'd done this crazy photo session at home wearing our wardrobe and props. after that we went to my newest fave cafe (thanks to nindia satiman) NEVER BEEN BETTER to edited my work. I'm happy that my sister and her friends (who also came hanging out with us) complimented my work, such a huge relief for me coz they aint rookie.

I've been thinking, for the very first time in my life, yesterday i finally found out what i want to do with my life. i wanna be a photographer, specifically in fashion. I'm no good in capturing moments, but I'm good at capturing human's essence. this is something I've been passionated about for a very long time. I've started this hobby since highschool, i even used to get paid from my friends when they asked me to taking their photos. I've been struggling and dying inside when this hobby stops due to college, but now since I've started it again, i feel alive. i practically grew up in the fashion industry influenced by my sister who has been working in the industry since i can remember. heck, I've been in pages of seventeen magazine several times when in junior high school. i live & breathe for this.

my dad, sisters, bestfriends (mila & reva) and also boyfriend has been really supportive about this hobby of mine. sometimes when i felt insecure because some people tend to looked down on me because i didn't have the fancy gadget, they said it doesn't matter what camera you use, it's the photos that counts. to be honest, i didn't even use a DSLR camera, this is just my digicam (who's going to die and cannot be use anymore pretty soon) and my photoshop skill. but who am i to judge myself? all i know that i wanna finished college as fast as i can and then work in this field. amen.

1978

2011-06-25T12:04:00.003+07:00

yesterday's photo shoot with my bestfriend kamila. photographed and edited and also styled by me. my sister said they looked like editorial photos from the 70's, so that's where the title came from.

flu

2011-06-23T16:49:00.002+07:00

acctually i have a class to attend today. but i woke up with runny nose, sore throat and a headache. so i called sick and rest at home. but i ended up taking lots of picture of myself ;p

a great photographer lady once said : "if your're still young and you're pretty, go take lots of pictures of yourself. you never know when your beauty starts to grow."

screen shot from last friday night

2011-06-16T17:46:00.002+07:00

such a funny video clip :D

amigos por siempre

2011-06-15T20:17:00.003+07:00

my college bestfriends are pretty much my life right now. since we've sorted out our problems and talked about what we like nor dislike towards each other, we've became more solid than ever. they're the funniest people I've ever met in my entire life, and for some of them, next term would be their last term studying at college. i just wished we still have time to spent together.... i don't wanna be separate from them too soon :(

sunday brunch

2011-06-06T08:27:00.003+07:00

Sunday brunch with my sister at appetite cafe. normally this cafe is fully booked on weekend, so we just crossed our fingers when we decided to go here. surprisingly it was empty. perhaps jakarta teenagers was too wasted and hangover from last nite. the place was lovely, i went there once for the arisan but it was really crowded so i didn't enjoyed it. but yesterday was perfect! i ordered banana creme brulee with caramel paste on top served with vanilla ice cream for desserts and i can tell you, for 20 years i've lived and tried many creme brulee, i think theirs are the best in town!

baby boy

2011-05-31T09:12:00.003+07:00

Last Saturday was one hectic day. the last round of my highschool arisan was held in pan d'or. since its the last round, everyone should come. the dresscode was colorful, which is fine by me coz i've got plenty of colorful formal clothes. but some of my friends had troubles with the dresscode because they mostly only have black or white clothes. we chatted, we laughed, we reminiscing the old times...... i know i've said this like million times but i do miss highschool so friggin much :"(on that day, another wonderful event happened. my baby nephew was born. actually he wasn't due till next week, but my sister keeps having the contraction since morning (and she didn't knew how contraction's feels like) so when she visited the hospital, she go straight onto the labour. and here it is, my newest nephew, Rabindranath Devlin Zaidanie :))

seven deadly princess

2011-05-20T10:11:00.003+07:00

The 7 Deadly Sins, also known as the Capital Vices or Cardinal Sins, is a classification of objectionable vices that have been used since early Christian times to educate and instruct followers concerning fallen humanity's tendency to sin. The currently recognized version of the list is usually given as wrath, greed, sloth, pride, lust, envy, and gluttony.

Cinderella carried the sin of lust, because she's too eager to find her prince so she asked for help from a fairy godmotherBelle is vanity because she can't stop looking to the mirror that Beast gave to her. i know the mirror didn't show their own reflection, but the whole thing of the movie is that she's the fairest of all. even her name is Belle wich means beautiful.Tinkerbell envied Wendy because she has feelings for Peter Pan, obviously.Jasmine's wrath towads Jaffar and her set-up marriage by her father showned in the whole movie.Aurora sleeps for hundred years. if that doesn't show slothness, then i can't explain anything.Ariel wants the handsome man, a pair of leg, and her beautiful voice back. This girl want it all and can't choose.Snow White STILL eats the poisoned apple after she bake the pie wich i presume she'll ate herself after. Hungry much?LOL, i posted this just for fun. i didn't mean any harm, i just love the concept of 7 deadly sins and the pictures of these disney princesses. enjoy!source : tumblr.

Violets are blue

2011-05-17T18:24:00.002+07:00

Holiday on Tuesday, experimenting on colors...

purple haze

2011-05-17T12:14:00.006+07:00

model : kamila ; photographed and edited by me.

Google icon today

2011-05-09T17:32:00.004+07:00

Google congratulate and make artworks tribute for Roger Hargreaves 76th birthday today, the creator of famous children's book "mr men and little miss". i love all of the character and when i opened google today i was pretty surprised to see the google icon like this. soo cute!!

URBANITE NYLON MUSIC FESTIVAL

2011-05-08T13:53:00.005+07:00

NYLON Indonesia and Urbanite Asia join forces last night and held this mega event called Urbanite NYLON music festival. the performers are 10 most promising local bands such as hightime rebellion, angsa & serigala, bottlesmoker, swimming elephants, roman foot soldiers, ndeesaster, jirapah, shore, and l'alphalpha. and also, this indie neo pop duo from Manchester, HURTS. i became a volunteer who organized the rundown of the event and taking care of the bands. my favourite is Jirapah because the vocalist, Ken, is very friendly and funny. There's also the NYLON mall where people can shop and eat, and also a pop-up embassy lounge for the afterparty. in conclusion, yesterday was legendary, and i'm having sooo much fun :D

Roman Foot Soldiers, the opening band for HURTSHURTS!!!Jirapah on stage!With the band member of Jirapah

cotton ink spring summer 2011

2011-04-27T20:45:00.005+07:00

sooooooooooooo beautiful :O

The Radio Department

2011-04-26T08:34:00.005+07:00

the radio dept, here, live in jakarta!!! God i'm so happy!! a first i kinda dissapointed with the venue, too small to held such a big concert with 700 spectators. the whole show i could only see the guittarist from the back angle because the stage is inside the restaurant and it was already filled with people. then after the show, i wanna say goodbye to a friend that's also playing after the radio dept. turns out the radio dept is on the second floor, giving atographs and taking pictures with people! so i took pic with them, here it is :

festival sinema perancis

2011-04-16T22:42:00.002+07:00

The french cinema festival is being held this week in Jakarta. me and couple of college friends watched it together two days in a row. it's not easy to get the ticket, most of it had already sold out. we even bought the ticket a week before because we're afraid we'll ran out of it. turns out many people are enthusiast to watch the french movie, even when they didn't understand the language. lucky for me, i get the movie that genre is romantic comedy, and it's really fun to watch. I've had a great time with my college buddies too, it's been a long time since we haven't hang out like this.

cotton ink spring fling

2011-04-10T11:54:00.002+07:00

I'm so in love with the lookbook photos, captured by my dearest kakak, Andra Alodita :)) And as always, all of the clothes are really cute!

Beatfest

2011-04-02T11:24:00.003+07:00

a week ago on saturday, i went to beatfest. normally i'm not a concert type of girl but MGMT is playing in beatfest so i was really eager to watched them. MGMT is like, one of my fave band, and they're coming to jakarta. i wold never missed that for a million years! anyway, i went there with my sister but then we got seperated, so i just enjoyed the concert alone, trying to get in the front of stage, and trying to captured the bands (whitest boy alive playing there too) with my lousy digicam but failed. but what the heck, i'm having such a good time, i'll remember that night for the rest of my life :D

whitest boy alive, Erlend Oye asked us to do earth minute with him

this is MGMT!!!Met couple of friends there....

Avana, Nindia, aniversaria!

2011-03-21T11:11:00.005+07:00

last saturday i went to my highschool monthly arisan. this time we dine at Avana terrace resto. the place is quite nice and we're the only people there so it's like we owned the place. i'm really happy to catching up with my besties, i've been missing highschool soo much specially my pretty ladies...

reva's the one who won the arisan this month. congrats sweetie ;)after that i went to Nindia's birthday party at her house. also gathered around my other lovess. i had such a great time :)at 12 am precisely that night (20 march), me and rizkiansyah celebrate our 3 years anniversary. i cannot believe it's 3 years already! although i could only see him through the computer screen, but still, our brief video call is a perfect closure for a perfect night :))

multiculturalisme dans le monde de la mode

2011-03-16T09:43:00.004+07:00

My poster for la semaine de la francophonie event held by the departement of France and the ambassador of France. the theme is "multiculturalism in the world of fashion". multiculturalism has been a huge issue in France until today. many immigrants over the years has moved in and out the country. they have suffered many ratial and discrimination issue in every level and aspect of life. by making this poster i wanna show the world that diversity can go along with unity, even in Paris, the capital of fashion world, where beauty determines by body size and golden-ratio shape of face. Anyone can be models or designers, involved in the high fashion industry, no matter what nationality and skin color they are.

as seen on nylon march edition

2011-03-15T09:07:00.004+07:00

awesome illustration by Monica Hapsari. I adore her :)I WANT THIS SO SO SO MUCHHH! WONDERWOMAN FOR MAC!on the left side is my friend's Aya Adhani's artwork, and the right one is mine :)

learn from the fairytale

2011-03-14T21:14:00.008+07:00

why did Aurora sleep for hundred years?

to tell us that you might have to wait for quite some time until your true love to came along.

why did Belle fell in love with Beast?

to remind us that it doesn't matter what the outside looks, but the beauty inside that's count.

why did Ariel exchange her fin for a pair of feet?

to show us that people willing to sacrifice something in order to be happy.

why did Cinderella run away at midnight?

to remind us that everything has its own limitation, even dreams.

why did Snow White given a poisoned apple?

to teach us that not everyone is kind, and not everyone confess their true identity.

why did princess Jasmine fell in love with Aladdin?

to teach us that money can't buy love.

why did Mulan runaway from home to join the army?

to show us how much a child could love their parents.

you you you in my head

2011-03-14T21:04:00.005+07:00

i guess being far away from each other makes us values each other even more than before. i love you sooooo much Rizkiansyah, I'll be counting days until you coming home :')

trop belle pour etre manger!

2011-03-10T20:23:00.004+07:00

ce que j'aime : les macarons!!!!

petit-ami l'aime aussi, donc je veux bien que, un jour, je puisse faire du macaron.

mais maintenant, je l'achete seulement aux patisseries...

it takes two to tango

2011-03-08T20:05:00.003+07:00

Baby, it takes two to make this relationship to work. but why am i the only one who's trying and make the effort? one day we're all "sweetypumps and sugarcakes" the next day you easily pissed me off. it's like that song : why can't i keep you save as my own? one moment i have you the next you're gone. baby i know you think you've tried, i know you're busy, i know you love me and i sure does know that you're care. but you're not trying hard enough. sorry for being such a demanding person, but baby, it takes two to tango.

PS : I made this for you, yesterday when we're all sweet and cuddly

I'm sticking with you

2011-03-06T12:08:00.004+07:00

Sunday morning, didn't know what to do... so i just take a picture of my treasures

sat/sun

2011-03-06T00:35:00.005+07:00

just done the second artwork contribution to nylon Indonesia. the magazine isn't out yet, and this image is not gonna be published under the name Richa Annisa. perhaps just Icha because i shouldn't made a contribution two edition in a row. but my sister asked me for a favor again, and i was happy to do it :)

anyway, missing these people in the picture, even thou i met them in regular basis, but i miss them like, wanna spend everyday with them. i'm so sick of college, only certain people i could trust and depend on, too many dramas and i'm not happy anymore. it's like, everyday is a torture and i'm not enjoying every single moment of it. i really really really wanna graduate as soon as possible and going to Brisbane to live with Rizki.

and, oh yeah, of course, i miss you the most :')

artwork

2011-02-19T12:33:00.005+07:00

one day, i forgot when the exact date is, my sister texted me and said "i give you 30 minutes to make an artwork to submit on my magazine" and i said okay. it took me 40 minutes exactly, but i manage to produced an artwork like this for nylon magazine and got compliment from their editor-in-chief :

and since then, i'm starting to playing around with adobe again. the last time i was designing would be when i graduated from highschool. my dreams to be a graphic designer was crushed when i didn't get accepted on FSRD ITB. i haven't opened my deviantart for 5 years, and my hobby has stopped right there. but after my nylon artwork there, i'm starting to explore photoshop again. so far i've been making these two :

vector for melissa shoes

edited self-portrait

and it got me thinking. am i doing the wrong thing right now? i know every college is hard, but i feel tortured living my day as a french literature major student. i heard my friends who's taking graphic design major got very exhausted for their neverending drawing homework, but at least they got tired doing things they're passionate about. me? sure i love reading literature and stuff, but i kinda feel that this is not what i desired. but it's too late to stop and change to different direction right now. what's my father gonna say? my family were so proud when i got accepted to this uni, and i don't wanna let them down. right now i wish it'll be over soon so i can move on and do things that i actually like.

just because i have faith in you

2011-02-14T16:02:00.004+07:00

it all started when we didn't even know each other. we came from two different world. i didn't knew that you were even exist, and so did you. you came when i'm in the lowest point of my life, when i just came back from a very hurtful past. soon i knew that you've been through the same thing. we both were afraid to even have feelings again. but on that moment i knew, you'll suit me perfectly.

we started everything from zero. we learned how to handle each other, we get to know each other's friends and family, and we built our dreams together. first time you confessed that you love me, i knew you spoke the truth, i can see it in your eyes. you're the best painkiller, you made me forgot about my pain. you don't know how to treat a lady, you're not the gentlest man in the world, but you know how to make me happy, and for me that's enough.

the best news in the world is when i found out that i got accepted in the same college with you. i'm not passionate about my major, but i'm happy beyond words, simply just because i can spend everyday with you.

almost 3 years we've been together, we had our ups and downs. many hurtful words came out of my mouth, but i didn't mean to hurt you. sometimes i felt like i've reached my boiling point, but i can't leave you. no reason, i just simply cant. i don't know how you can stand it, all of my exes said i'm crazy. but you keep sticking with me. you're more than just a boyfriend, you're also my bestfriend. you always be there everytime i'm falling apart, you always forgive me even after i'm having "one of those moods" and acted like a crazy person. i don't know how you manage to do that without being crazy yourself. i realized that you have flaws, but i can't see that. because to me you are perfect.

tonight is our last night, tomorrow you'll be gone far away from me. right now i'm in the line between normality and insanity. i can't bear the thought of being faraway from you. yesterday i was laughing and cheering you and kept telling you to be excited for your departure. but today i woke up, felt like shit, broke down and cried for several times. i know i shouldn't, i know this is just a temporary goodbye. i know you will come home soon, i know we'll be together again in no time. i've known that you're the one before i even met you, and now i know that you are worth waiting for. simply because i have faith in you.

(originally written in February 12)

othe

2011-02-11T10:09:00.004+07:00

today, i said goodbye to a very dear ex boyfriend of mine. his name is rodney malino siahaan. people calls him abang, othe, palor, and many other nicknames. it's just a temporary goodbye, he's gonna study abroad at Australia. but still, last night on his farewell, turns out to be a crying parade. he's a good friend. 5 years we've all been friends, no one had a hard feelings on him. when we told him our problem, he's not just listen. he also feels our sorrow, and helping us in anyway he could. with him gone, each one of us feels the lost. to me personally, having him as an ex, i'm way beyond proud. i'm proud that people knows him as a good man, a man who have a goal to make people around him proud of him. although we had going out for only 4 months, but still, it was a happy times. i kept saying to him, come home soon and don't forget where you're from and belong. until we meet again abang, i know you'll make it there :")

A love that will last

2011-02-05T10:58:00.004+07:00

I want a little something more
don't want the middle or the one before
i don't desire a complicated past
i want love that will last
say that you love me, say I'm the one
don't kiss and hug me and then try to run
i don't do drama, my tears don't fall fast
i want love that will last
i don't want just a memory, give me forever
don't even think about saying goodbye
cause i just want one love to be enough
and remains in my heart till i die
so, call me romantic, oh i guess that's so
there's something more than you ought to know
I'll never leave you, so don't even ask
i want a love that will last
so there's just a little more that i need
i wanna share all the air that you breathe
I'm not the kind of girl who likes to complicate her past
i want a love that will last
forever, i want a love that will last.

8 days left

2011-02-05T10:18:00.002+07:00

it's 8 days left before Rizkiansyah's departure, and i'm not quite sure about how i feel right now. people keep asking "you must be sad, aren't you?" and i just answered them with nod and smile. the truth is, i'm not that sad. sure i'm gonna miss him so much. but i just want him to go and finish his study quickly so that he can come back here and we'll be together again. it's not that i'm not thankful to be surrounded by people who cares about me and gave me full support and ready to catch me if i fall when rizki's gone, but to be honest what i really need is someone who's gonna slap me and yell at me for being so weak. i gotta keep it together, it's just a temporary separation and we will be together again soon. it's not a break-up, he kept saying that he did this for me, so that he could provide me with a better future if we ended up married. yes i do wanna be his wife, but i don't know if God has another plan for me. maybe there's someone out there for me and it's not rizki, i still don't know yet. there are times when i'm not even sure that i wanna continued this relationship anymore. he's great and all, but our relationship is not perfect and i see flaws here and there. everything has its plus and minus, i can't decide juts based on numbers of bad days. everytime me and my girlfriends are chatting, the topics were always about marriage. i'm not gonna lie, i am too, thinking about marriage. i'm the housewives type of girl. i wanna get married, have kids, and taking care of my family. maybe i'll have a part-time job, maybe i'll be a writer, open a food business, i dont know yet but i'm quite sure that i don't wanna work at the office, 9 to 6, 5 days a week. and everytime i imagined the future, i see rizkiansyah in it. i'm afraid that he doesn't feel the same way about it because we never had "the talk". at this point of my life is filled with uncertainty. all i'm sure of now is that i love him and he loves me, so what else matters?

my polyvore

2011-02-03T10:30:00.003+07:00

I'm back in polyvore world after loooong hiatus. this website getting more and more addicting. yo;u should try it on www.polyvore.com ;)

beauty in sketches

2011-02-02T10:47:00.002+07:00

"i find beauty in everything"

(images courtsesy of weheartit.com)

ka mi la

2011-01-30T12:49:00.004+07:00

my bestfriend kamila turning 21 yesterday and we went out to celebrate her birthday dinner at nanny's pavilion. in the middle of our diner, my other bestfriend revata suddenly came with a box of cupcakes and candles to surprise mila while singing happy birthday. suddenly the whole people in the restaurant are also singing for her. mila's face turning really red because she was embarrassed, and i couldn't stop laughing for that. i'm so happy for her, i wish her a lifetime happiness and always get the best thing in life. love you kamil!

con-vi-vi-um

2011-01-23T16:40:00.004+07:00

went to my annual high school "arisan" at convivium, this new Italian restaurant (cucina italiana) which i instantly fell in love with the place since first time i entered the door. and then one of my friend's birthday dinner. the dress code was "colorful" and i couldn't think of anything to wear. my formal clothes was all black, white, or "old" tone color. so i pulled this casual dress that I've bought from last year but didn't have the chance to wear it until now. when i arrived at the dinner, everybody was dressing up formally. i was so embarrassed to see I'm the only one there to dressed casually. but as the night goes by, many people showing up and there's a girl who's wearing tee and shorts. i don't' feel so ashamed anymore.

anyway, i injured my toe couple of days before, it really hurts to just even walk. i know I'm exaggerating, but it hurts like hell. I'm taking a chance by wearing heels and was so afraid that i would make my injured toe hurts even more. but thank God nothing bad happened. i also met couple of friends that i haven't met for a long time, and they all said that i'm getting bigger/fatter. oh my god i should really start to lose some weight!!!

Best-dressed celebrities of 2010

2011-01-19T23:04:00.003+07:00

this is the list of best-dressed celebrities of 2010 according to teen vogue and some comments from me. the original list contains approximately 50 hollywood's A-listers but i narrowed it down to just ten. i know i'm not a fucking "someone" in the fashion industry, this is just my point of view as an average girl who likes flipping through fashion magazines and fashion websites. i'm not a copy cat and i'm smart enough not to follow every style i've seen because i know that i'm not looking good in it. i have my own style, i like it simple and classy, and there are days when i'm not in the mood so i just put on a tee, jeans, and sandals. but having a fashion-stylist slash editor sister, i know what's tacky and what's not in the fashion world. okay, enough about me, so here it is :

#1 ALEXA CHUNG --> Couldn't agree more. never see her go wrong with her style, always love how she put on clothes, and loving her messy hair and minimum make-up.

#2 EMMA ROBERTS --> Agree! althought i'm not seeing her much, but i think she's pretty and all of her clothes are also pretty.

#3 CAREY MULLIGAN --> loving her pixie-cut hair! tres petite & tres belle. is she dating Jake Gyllenhaal? i saw them together at the golden globe. they look cute together :3

#4 KATE BOSWORTH --> as always.

#5 LEA MICHELE --> Despite her annoying character as Rachel Berry on Glee, i still find her very beautiful and couldn't argue that her voice is mind-blowing (althought some people find it irritating). i like her preppy look on glee and her classy style in real life.

#6 CAMILLA BELLE --> Ooh sweet girl crush of mine and Rizkiansyah. the first time he asked me out we watched 10.000 BC where Camilla plays in it. me and Rizki was like "oh my god CAMILLA! I love her!" at the same time (weird things we had in common), her style is never wrong.

#7 KRISTEN STEWART --> EEEWWW i'm not quite agree with this one. infact, i'm not agree at all with anyone who thinks this girl is sexy. i even didn't wanna talk about her in my blog. so move aside bitch, yes this is totally personal.

#8 TAYLOR SWIFT --> Sweet girl next door Taylor. nice voice, cute style, pretty face, sweet personality. she got the whole package.

#9 OLIVIA PALERMO --> i gotta be honest that i didn't really know this girl and what she have done in the hollywood film industry, but i can tell ya that i didn't really like her style in this picture.

#10 RACHEL BILSON --> as always.

cute findings at nylonmag.com

2011-01-19T19:36:00.007+07:00

click images to enlarge

go to http://www.nylonmag.com/ for more cute stuff and up-to-date fashion news :D

self-portrait

2011-01-18T00:12:00.003+07:00

you have my permission to vomit all you want after seeing my photos, but hear my story first. i'm on holiday right now, and i got nothing to do so i hang out in my sister's room all the time. and after got bored by watching those TV shows, i tried experimenting with my sister's stuff. first i tried to wore a hat. i never wore a hat my whole life, such irony cos my sister kind of a hat collector. the first photo is me wearing a hat. weird, i know, but i kinda like it. maybe later when i have a bad hair day i would wear it. and then i tried a red lipstick (as shown as the 2nd picture). i always love a pinup girl figure like dita von teese and i'd notice that she likes wearing red lipstick. i got couple of compliments when i set the 2nd pic as my blackberry messenger's photo ID. and yes i'm planning on buying a red lipstick real soon!

the man behind it all

2011-01-17T17:17:00.003+07:00

a question popped in my head earlier, "who is the person that makes me what i am now", and the image of a man came straight into my brain. he's my first love, since the first time I opened my eyes. he took part on teaching me how to talk, walk, and finally could run. when he was sitting in front of his working desk and i came near him, he took a break from his work just to kiss my cheek or hug me. he kissed my knee when after my first biking injury. he was kinda hard on me when it comes to school and studying, and i remember that i used to cried at night after he yells at me because my report card's filled with red ink. he's the one who helps me to (finally) getting good grades at school. he's the one who pushed me to pursue my dream and developed my hobby. he always compliments my look, saying how pretty i am, but also tells me that i should have the brain and behaviour instead of just beauty. he's the one who came to my room and checked on my temperature and take me to the doctor when i feel sick. he's the one who taught me to be tough and brave. he cries when i got accepted at the most prestigious university in Indonesia and telling me repeatedly how proud he is of me. he knows what best for me and he's nice to every friend and boyfriend that i brought home. he might not always granted my every wish, but he always try to give me the best. he's not always soft to me but that's his way to taught me to grow up. he makes me set my standard so high when it comes to boyfriend, because i wanna marry someone who is just like him. he's not perfect, he's only human, but to me he's half God. today is his birthday and i wish him the very best. he's my dad.

good stuff

2011-01-15T15:39:00.006+07:00

went to the goods dept with rizkiansyah last night. we have planned to watch a music concert at some local mall but because he was soo late to picked me up so we went to grand Indonesia instead because it's the only place i know that still serves food at 10 pm. so we grab some meal at the GOODS cafe which is located at the GOODS department, the new "it" store in Jakarta that sells various items from many awesome local brands. the food was pretty good and they still have a discount trial up to 25%. i am so happy to see that teenagers in Jakarta is actually excited to buy things from our local brand, and i think the quality that these brands sold is able to compete in the international market. some of them already sold their goods to other countries like Singapore and Australia (nikicio, cotton ink, etc.), and that's an outstanding achievement for them.

i bought this silver ballet flats there. the brand is petite cupcakes and they sold a very very cute girlie style clothes. I've been meaning to buy this shoes and I've been checking out their online store for a while, but I'm not sure about my size and if it's comfortable to wear or not. thank god they sell it at the goods dept :D they're really serious about the packaging, it's like a packaging for cakes because that's their concept, right? they even named each collection by cakes and patisserie names like "snowflakes" and "gingersnap". i know, cute right? i just wished i had more money, because the stuff at the goods dept is so hard to resist!

anyway....... NYLON INDONESIA IS HERE!!!!! along with NYLON GUYS INDONESIA!!!! why am i so excited? why do i care anyway? well let me tell you why..... Because MY SISTER IS THE MANAGING EDITOR OF NYLON INDONESIA. it's like, the highest position after the editor in chief. Seeing this magazine the first time (before it's even available in the store, yes i have the privilege to read it first every month) i drop a tear. it really is THAT awesome. to see my sister's name in almost every page of this magazine.... the feeling is priceless. proud, happy, -well mostly proud- and i know that every teenager in Jakarta would be jealous of me :p i know how hard she have worked for this magazine, she's coming home late everyday, she's tired and sleeping the whole day on weekends, it's just paid off by seeing this magazine. this magazine represents her so much. and i know she's really happy in her new office now. I'm gonna tell you one more time, this magazine is so cool because there's no other magazine here in Indonesia that has concept like this one. I'm not gonna give the sneak peek here, you have to buy it yourself ;)

TRON

2010-12-26T09:23:00.003+07:00

This week i watched Tron twice, two days in a row. first i watched it with my dad, and then Rizkiansyah kinda mad at me because I've promised to watch it together with him. So, Saturday we went to Gandaria City (officially my favourite mall), having lunch with his highschool mate (i'm pretty close to them) and the watch tron. I'm not bored at all, infact, i understand the whole meaning of the movie, back and forth. Tron is like, my childhood game. I was kinda upset when a "mbak mbak" who sat beside me during movie, doesn't quite understand the story and decided to chat with "mas mas" beside her. seriously, if you didn't get it, why don't you just get the fuck out from the theater? it's just, really annoying. it's not my fault that your mind is only capable of watching low-budget sinetron on local tv channel.
anyway, i really really love Tron! all of the music composed by daft punk (which also showed up on the movie as duo DJ wearing helmet, their trademark) and that's why Rizkiansyah was soo excited watching this movie. He's a huge daft punk fan since highschool. and the graphic design, mind-blowing! and the costume the people wore on "the grid" successfully amazed me. i wish they'll make the next episode, and that episode would be more awesome than this one (as if it's even possible).

so you think you know everything?

2010-12-21T19:51:00.001+07:00

well i guess you better read this one :

tangled

2010-12-19T09:53:00.003+07:00

I know it's like, super late, but i was just watched Rapunzel yesterday. blame Rizkiansyah and his "masculinity" for refusing to watch this girly cartoon even if i begged and i cried. but thank God yesterday he's surrender and agreed to watch this with me :p
anyway, i've been the biggest disney movie since forever. everytime my daddy went to US, he was always bringing back disney's video cassette. Yep, i watched them on tape. I have a full collection of every disney's classic movie (cinderella, snow white, little mermaid etc.). Growing up, i've seen the evolution from hand-drawing cartoon to animation. I've grew up with Andy and have witnessed merlin chasing nemo, boo scared sully and mike, wall-e and eva dancing in the galaxy, carl's and elly's floating home, and mcQueen racing to carburator spring. And now we have Rapunzel (although the official title is Tangled).
and may i just say, i am crazeeeh about this cartoon! i like the drawing, the story's concept, the design of the castle inside and out, and rapunzel's entourage (the horse, the chameleon, and the vikings). this is the first time i've watched something and rizkiansyah didn't enjoyed it but i didn't feel guilty a bit :D i wish they'll made the sequel, even if i know disney's sequel often failed to be as good as the first (except toy story) but i really wanna see this one!!

marriage is ON!

2010-12-12T15:13:00.004+07:00

I've attended 2 weddings in these past 2 weeks. both of em were on weekend. As always, my +1 is of course, Rizkiansyah. the first wedding is my college friend's, her name is Wanda. the wedding was wonderful, all of the food was delicious, and the crowd -which pretty much all of my college friends- was great. Rizkiansyah couldn't stop eating! one minute he's beside me, and the next minute he's gone and come back later with a plate full of food.
the second wedding was my friend nabila's sister. she's a blogger too, from Fika Sweet Escape (i don't know how to linked it to the actual page, but i assume that you all know her). The wedding is also beautiful. Attending these two weddings, i can't wait for my own :p

bayern munchen loveee

2010-12-07T19:04:00.002+07:00

Having lunch and watching "unstoppable" with Rizkiansyah, and he gave me a bayern munchen jersey with Schweinsteiger name on it. He really knows how to surprised me. i love you soo much wiskiancyah :3

Anyway... It's 1 month left until he's leaving to Brisbane. My heart crushed everytime i think about it. But we've promised each other to give this relationship a shot. I know he's worth waiting :)

cotton ink fall winter 2010

2010-11-28T11:48:00.002+07:00

super duper mega extra cool!!!

anniversary date

2010-11-21T12:03:00.002+07:00

Went to gandaria city with rizkiansyah to celebrate our 2 years and 8 months anniversary. we dine at sushi tei and saw harry potter and deathly hallows part 1 in cinema. it was beyond awesome! sure some details from the book has slipped away from the movie, but still, really took my breath away! and right now i really cant wait for the part 2 which will be playing next year. Fingers crossed it will be just as awesome as the first part :D

CASUAL COOL, a mini collection

2010-11-12T10:54:00.006+07:00

Casual cool mini collection is the brand new cotton ink's collection for this month. From drapery cardigans to drawstring skirt, this new collection are still, comfortable to wear and it fits perfectly to every type and size of body. They're available in many colors, neutral to unusual (such as tosca green and lavender pink) and we can mix-matched it with any sorts of tops, bottoms, dresses, and accessories.

My most favorite piece from this collection is the luxe althea viscose lavender pink dress, very comfortable to wear and the design is too cute! I love the fact that it has loose silhouette, because my shape is kinda big, and this dress helps hiding my body shape. The color gives me a feminin look, and i think it suits perfectly for formal and informal occasion. I also like the stripe salmon drape cardigan, i think the color is cute, the drapery gives a dramatic effect and it looks feminin but sporty at the same time, but too bad its always out of stock. I hope cotton ink will release other color for the drawstring skirt, coz i love this piece but i'm looking forward for another color. But overall, i love every piece of this new collection. Once again, cotton ink knows how to grab everyone's heart!

The thing i love about cotton ink, is their idea to wear it in many ways possible, and i think that's smart. Also their prize are affordable, but they're using good quality materials. And i heard that they have won Cleo fashion award for the best innovative local brand. I couldn't agree more, this brand trully deserves standing ovation!

Black White & Woman

2010-10-29T11:02:00.005+07:00

all images sources from we heart it.

Life as we know it

2010-10-24T21:22:00.003+07:00

Went to gandaria city with Rizki, we're having lunch at radja ketjil and then went to see life as we know it on cinema. Josh Duhamel is mega hot in there, and the baby is cute too! the only thing i didn't like on the film is Katherine Heighl. And then i went to Etude House to buy a lipgloss because i found out that regular lipstick didn't attach quite long on my lips. When i came into the store, all of the shop attendants greeted me with "welcome princess!!!". i was so embarrassed, and after i payed my lipgloss, the cashier asked me to take my photo with the product i bought, and they wanted me to wrote my opinion about the store. Well the interior is cute, and i love the packaging, so girly. and i like the shop attendants, they're all nice and not bitchy and snob like any other attendants in some famous make-up store. And when i leave, they all shouted again "thank you princess, come back again!!!". Okay, I'm a princess then, if they said so :p
(Zara top, unbranded cardigan, Zara pants, Zara shoes, Benetton bag, F21 flower ring.)

clog clog who's there

2010-10-23T18:33:00.002+07:00

Had lunch at senayan city with the whole family to celebrate my brother's birthday. actually i wasn't wearing this clogs to the lunch, i was wearing a ballet flats. but at home i wanna try my sister's clogs and see how do i look wearing this shoes. I'm not much of a clogs fan, infact, i tend to make fun of it. I thought that clogs are like "emak emak" but turns out it looks good on me cos it makes me taller and slimmer( i think?). but still, hate the shape of it. i prefer ballet flats always!
(Magnolia top, Zara pants, New Look clogs)

What my future's gonna be

2010-10-23T11:36:00.003+07:00

"I may still not know what i want to be when i grow up, but i do know that someday i want to live in a house filled with my books and travel souvenirs. And the walls that aren't covered in bookshelves will be covered with photos of my family and friends. When i leave the house i will be going to a job i love, and i will return at night to the people i love. That's the dream I'm working on."

Eat Pray Love

2010-10-22T20:44:00.002+07:00

I was watching eat pray love at the cinema with my Rizkiansyah the other day. I wanted to watch wallstreet but Rizki insisted to watch eat pray love because he wanted to see the set which take places in Italy and Bali. the movie is really long with deep conversation and magnificent cinematography. And suddenly there's this conversation between Liz & his 2nd boyf (forgot his name) that really hits me and made me speechless. It goes like this :
"what if we just acknowledged that we have a bad relationship, and we suck it out anyway? what if we admitted that we make each other nuts, we fight constantly and hardly ever ever have sex, but we cant live without each other so we deal with it? And then we could spend our lives together, in misery, but happy to not be apart."
I'm like, wow, wrong person to watch with. I mean, that's where me and him right now, that place, the one where we fight really often, we've even already be apart but then get back together again, and now we both are trying to picking up the pieces that had already torn apart by our ego and anger. From the outside we looked okay, but there's this tiny voices inside our hearts that keep telling us that there's something wrong. I know he felt it too and i know he tried so hard to make the voices go away, I myself do the same. But we don't know how long do we have to stay like this. I miss the old us, we were so close, he's like my whole world. Now he's just like some guy i rarely met and we didn't tell each other anything anymore.
Don't get me wrong, I am trying to make this all worked (again), and i know he did it too. It is too selfish of me to asked him a lot, i admit that. I know he's working so hard to make this relationship as normal as it used to, to contacted me at least once a day, to start calling me sweet nicknames again, i know that, i saw few changes from him. And i just wish that he sees me that way too, because i wanna be better for him. I hope.

White shirt day & night

2010-10-08T12:12:00.005+07:00

White shirt for day and night events. paired up with high waist skirt or pants, a necklace, and cute heels.

White Ann Taylor shirt, F21 necklace, Cotton On skirt, Zara shoes

White Ann Taylor shirt, F21 necklace, F21 pants, Zara shoes.

actually i didn't know which outfit is more suitable for night and which for day. I think both of the outfits is suitable for day and night events. it kinda helps to make curvy body looks smaller a little, and it's also suitable for formal or casual events.

From NY, London, and Milan

2010-10-05T20:19:00.009+07:00

I'm a rookie when it comes to fashion. i can't be considered as a stylish person. i like my style to be classy, a lil bit of feminine touch, but always keep it simple. But i read vogue, bazaar, elle, glamor, & inStyle a little too soon (Thanks to my sisters) so i guess i know what's tremendous and what's tacky. Well here it is, Fashion week Spring 2011 ready to wear review from my point of view :

House of Holland

Loving the make-up and the hair style, Love the fresh blue, gold, and purple, the shiny pleated skirt, the ribbon around the hips. well done, Henry! *applause*

Betsey Johnson
Kinda disappointed with the make up and the hair style, the top left picture is cute. the top right, i mean come on! bridezilla on prom? the two bottom picture, nautical, borring. come on Betsey, try harder :(

Balmain
The washed-out american flag tank top : cool! Rolled over pants : awesome! leather jacket with studs : well if balmain says it's back in, then we will follow.

Marc by Marc Jacobs
just cute, fresh, and simple, just like MbMJ alwas be. although we've seen enough multicolor stripes dress already, don't we? Next time better, Marc :)

Proenza Schouler
I like it simple, I like it classic, and Proenza is like the fairy godmother who knows what every princess need :D

What i like in guys

2010-10-03T11:22:00.003+07:00

1. brown hair | black hair | blonde hair | red hair

2. tall | short | same height as you

3. ear piercings | eyebrow piercings | snake bites | no piercings | other

4. tattoos | no tattoos | idgaf

6. shy | outgoing | in between

7. mellow | hyper | loud | quiet

8. blue eyes | brown eyes | green eyes

9. wears tight jeans | wears normal jeans

10. converse | vans | nike | adidas

12. compliments too much | compliments when necessary

13. jokes around all the time | jokes when necessary

14. sensitive | hides emotion | acts tough

16. loves to hold | loves to be held

17. tons of muscles | fit | skinny | chubby

18. pale | average | tan | dark

19. cusses a lot | never cusses | moderatly cusses | only cusses around friends |

.....and it's love.

2010-10-03T09:55:00.008+07:00

Pushing daisies quote

2010-10-03T09:39:00.006+07:00

"If i loved you, then i would love you in anyway i could.
And if we could not touch,
then i would draw strength from your beauty.
And if i went blind,
then i would filled my soul with the sound of your voice
and the contents of your thoughts
until the last spark of my love for you
lit the shabby darkness of my dying mind."

B-day D-day

2010-09-06T10:10:00.002+07:00

Yesterday, september the 5th, was my birthday. I'm turning 20! entering the big 2-0! from 00:00 o clock until 23:00 i have received many birthday wishes and surprises from my dear dear friends and boyfriend. But the one person who had gave me gifts are the one and only my true love: Kamila, my bestfriend. Actually I'm the one who picked the gifts i wanted. We went to Plaza Indonesia and had dinner at pizza e birra with my other half Revata. Thou yesterday filled with tears cos i'm having a huge fight with Rizkiansyah, but it turns out happy after all, cos at night he went to my house with some of my friends and gave me the last surprise. Thank you guys, you are all awesome!!!

little souvenirs

2010-09-04T15:23:00.003+07:00

My precious finds from the last Singapore trip. I didn't shop much there because the fashion items for this season was really not my style. But I did found what I've wanted to collect since long time ago, the charm bracelet, and it's Disney! Double yayness!

Little getaway on August

2010-09-04T10:07:00.008+07:00

At the end of August, me and my sister went to Singapore for 5 days, running away from our hectic routines here in Jakarta. There, we stayed at my uncle's apartment and there's also my cousin who has stayed there for 6 months to accompanied my uncle through his therapy (my uncle was sick and he needs to go to medical check up at Singapore for once in a month). This is me and my sister's first sisters getaway, just the two of us, and it was succeeded! On the last day we were crying cos we didn't wanna go home, we had so much fun in Singapore with the orchard road and the universal studios and the marina bay area, the apartment is super comfy, we love the neighborhood, and we wished that we're gonna live there forever..... :'(

wishlist : melissa

2010-08-22T11:49:00.003+07:00

Seriously, if i have 10 million rupiah right now, i will definitely gonna spend it on buying all of these Melissa shoes!!

Mah

2010-08-19T04:58:00.001+07:00

I'm like, very pissed right now with my mother. She's bringing up the conversation that have been ended few days ago, at the sahur table. And i was like, oh my god, will you let it go already?? She's accusing me for something i didn't do, and it's not that big deal anyway, and i thought that this conversation has ended few days ago! But noooo, she would never let it go wouldn't she?
Seriously, if i have my own money right now, i will definitely get the hell out of here. I love my dad soo much and my sister, but I'm seriously can't take her. If i see movies about mother daughter relationship where the daughter hate her mother, am like "i feel you sista!" *niggah style* well not actually hate, hate is a strong word. Let me put it this way, i love my mom, love her soo much. But i can't get to close to her, cos she's always giving me hard time. For example, I'm not excited to go back to Bangka for this lebaran, cos the last time i went there with my mother, we had this huge fight and she made me cry all night. So my memories of Bangka will always be about the fight. And it's pretty traumatic for me.
Me and her, we know we love each other. But seriously we can't stand being around each other, one of us were gonna flip out eventually, just by small things. She gets along pretty well with my sisters, but she can't drive them to the way she wanted because they're already grew up and living their own life. And since I'm the only kid left here who hasn't been independent yet, she drives me to the way (she wanted) that's making me crazy.
I just wanna finish my college immediately, then get a job, and then live on my own the way i wanted.

Dirgahayu Indonesia

2010-08-17T11:18:00.000+07:00

Hari ini adalah HUT kemerdekaan Indonesia yang ke-65. Gue sengaja nulis postingan kali ini dengan bahasa Indonesia, karena ini the least i can do buat menghargai hari ini. Ada orang kampung nulis di twitter -well not actually orang kampung sih, temen gue tapi mulutnya suka kampungan- dia bilang kita semua sok2an ngucapin dirgahayu Indonesia tapi kita sendiri nggak ada yang mau upacara. dan dalam hati gue tereak "SOK TAU LO!" memangnya dia pikir menghargai hari ini harus dengan upacara bendera? nggak juga. hanya dengan ngucapin, atau pakai baju merah putih, atau lomba 17an, pokoknya semua hal yang dilakukan spesial hanya dengan alasan "karena hari ini 17 agustus makanya gue mau kayak gini" itu tetep bermakna. smallest contribution still counts! daripada lo yang kerjaannya cuma bisa nyindir dan nyinyir di twitter, coba gue tanya, hari ini lo ngapain? huh!
oke oke kembali ke masalah 17 agustusan. kemarin gue abis baca di kompas.com yang mewawancarai mantan pejuang pada tahun 45 yang sekarang menjadi tukang sapu jalanan di daerah menteng. ketika bapak itu ditanya "apa arti kemerdekaan?" dan dia jawab "kemerdekaan itu ya kalo semua masyarakat sejahtera, nggak banyak yang susah kayak sekarang." Sedih sih memang, tapi bagi gue kemerdekaan itu : bisa menghirup udara bebas, bisa jalan kemana saja, bisa berkata dan melakukan apa saja, bisa berkreasi sesukanya, tanpa takut ditangkap atau dipenjara atau bahkan dihukum mati. Coba bandingkan sama negara seperti Palestina, mau solat aja kayaknya ngumpet ngumpet karena takut ditembak sama tentara musuh. Hidup dengan ngejilat pantat musuh supaya aman. Coba juga bandingkan dengan 65 tahun yang lalu, dimana mau sekolah aja susah. kerja banting tulang untuk keuntungan penjajah semata. salah dikit langsung tembak dan hukum mati, or at least ditangkap dan dipenjara. Bapak (Alm.) Pramoedya Anantatoer hanya karena nulis buku yang isinya mengkritik penjajah, langsung ditangkap dan diasingkan di pulau Buru selama 14 tahun. sekarang pers bisa menulis apapun yang mereka suka, walaupun dapat kecaman sana sini, pengarang Indonesia (misalnya Andrea Hirata) sukses sampai ke negri orang. tapi itu inti kemerdekaan, yaitu kebebasan. masih bisa hidup di tanah kelahiran, masih bisa berdiri tegak memijakkan kaki di Indonesia. Apapun teori konspirasi yang terjadi zaman dahulu era pra-kemerdekaan, semua tokoh pejuang kita, baik atau buruk, dengan cara yang lembut ataupun kasar, tujuan mereka cuma 1, memajukan Indonesia supaya generasi berikutnya (kita kita ini) bisa hidup enak dan bisa tidur nyenyak tanpa harus mikir "gue takutnya kalo tidur nanti tiba tiba rumah gue dibombardir sama tentara musuh". ok, nggak se-ekstrim itu juga sih, tapi ngerti kan maksudnya?
Intinya, hidup itu jangan ngelihat gelas setengah kosong, tapi gelas sudah terisi setengah. Jangan fokus ke apa yang belum kita capai selama 65 tahun kemerdekaan ini, tapi bersyukurlah karena 65 tahun ini sudah banyak yang bisa kita capai. Apa apa yang belum kita capai itu, ya harus kita perjuangkan lagi untuk tahun tahun berikutnya. Gue yakin kok, masyarakat Indonesia pasti sekarang ini melakukan hal hal kecil yang nantinya akan berkembang menjadi dampak besar di mata dunia yang bisa mengharumkan bangsa Indonesia. Coba aja kita lihat dari segi fashion misalnya, sekarang ini anak anak muda yang merintis local brand, udah bisa mengekspor barang barangnya sampai ke Australi, Singapur, Malaysia, bahkan US dan UK (misalnya cotton ink, kle by kleting, nikicio, proud parents, etc). Inget, small contribution still counts, and you might not know if someday, that small contribution will grow and have huge impact.
Jadi jangan cuma ngeluh dan complain kerjaannya. Kalo lo mikir "gue sampai sekarang belum bisa berkontribusi apa apa buat negara gue" ok, lo bisa dukung orang orang yang udah ngelakuin sesuatu untuk negara kita. Gue? kontribusi gue nggak seberapa, gue hanya punya beberapa teman chat dari beberapa negara dan gue selalu promosiin Indonesia ke mereka supaya mereka mau berkunjung kesini suatu hari nanti. So far sih mereka kelihatan excited dan amused dengan negara kita, beberapa udah googling dan terpesona sama keindahan alam kita. At least walaupun mereka nggak berniat untuk datang kesini, mereka jadi tau Indonesia dengan capital city nya Jakarta, dengan ribuan pulau dan keindahan alamnya, nggak cuma "hmm Indonesia? is that near Bali?" serius sakit hati gue ada yang ngomong kayak gini.
Ok, yang tadi niatnya mau short writing jadi panjang gini. Pokoknya gue bersyukur masih menjadi warga negara Indonesia, masih diberi kebebasan setiap harinya untuk hidup dan bernafas di tanah ini. Dirgahayu Indonesiaku, semoga terus bergerak ke arah yang lebih baik. MERDEKA!!!

The saddest song

2010-08-16T21:14:00.001+07:00

You could be happy and I won't know
But you weren't happy the day I watched you go
And all the things that I wished I had not said
Are played in loops 'till it's madness in my head
Is it too late to remind you how we were
But not our last days of silence, screaming, blur
Most of what I remember makes me sure
I should have stopped you from walking out the door
You could be happy, I hope you are
You made me happier than I'd been by far
Somehow everything I own smells of you
And for the tiniest moment it's all not true
Do the things that you always wanted to
Without me there to hold you back, don't think, just do
More than anything I want to see you, girl
Take a glorious bite out of the whole world

jade & stripes

2010-08-16T20:47:00.000+07:00

It's 8:48 pm on Monday and I'm bored as hell. so i opened my closet and tried some of the clothes i didn't have the chance to wear until now. For those of you who asked "are you always this fat?" then my answer is "yes". Sorry if my body shape hurt your eyes, but you have to know that I'm pretty comfortable with my size and i don't need anyone pointing out how big i am, already knew that, thanks :)

Cotton ink's jade Neptune dress + animal necklace

(x)s.m.l top + tailor made skirt + diva necklace

New babylove

2010-08-15T21:12:00.001+07:00

Manuel Neuer and Bastian Schweinsteiger
I want them wrapped in a cute pink ribbon as a gift for my upcoming birthday. I don't know what else to say, I'm paralyzed by their cuteness. Good job, God. Good job.

Kiss me goodnight

2010-08-15T20:49:00.002+07:00

"For a kiss to be really good, you want it to mean something.
You want it to be with someone you can't get out of your head.
So that when your lips finally touch, you feel it everywhere.
A kiss so hot and so deep, you never want to come up for air.
You can't cheat your first kiss, trust me, you don't want to.
Because when you find that right person for a first kiss,
it's everything."

-Dr. Alex Karev

cotton ink holy month special collection

2010-08-11T05:57:00.000+07:00

Inspired by the exotic middle east, the new cotton ink collection is prepared for entering the holy month of Ramadhan. With warm colors and soft cotton material, this collection is perfect to wear on the last day of Ramadhan, the Hari raya Ied. And for those who wear veil, cotton ink's original masterpiece -the tubular shawls- can also used as a veil.
You see that i've been giving reviews for every cottonink's newest collection. well i'm just crazy about this brand. they put comfort first before design, and that's what i like about my clothes. not that i'm saying the design is standard, no, they fir your body perfectly. And for their every collection's photo shoot, they collaborate with my #1 favorite photographer, my dearest kak Andra Alodita <3
and the team behind it all, the designer, the models, the photographer, all of them are girls. that's the true definition of girl power!

(Images from cottonink's twitter account, @cottonink)

WORLDCUP 2010 EYE CANDY

2010-07-13T23:24:00.000+07:00

i am sooo in love with the whole German team, such as Philipp Lahm, Podolski, Ozil, Muller and their coach Joachim Loewe.
But I can't resist the charm of Iker Casillas, i mean, who does? He's soo adorable I just wanna squeeze him until he's ran out of breath :3

oh boy!

2010-07-07T22:44:00.000+07:00

well-dressed man will always impressed us, ladies :))

and thank God, my boyfriend never pulled crappy outfits.
all images courtesy of www.lookbook.nu

Cotton Ink pre-fall collection 2010

2010-07-02T18:53:00.001+07:00

One of my favorite Indonesian brand, Cotton Ink, will launch their pre-fall collection on the next brightspot market (a temporary market for cool independent Indonesian brands). I have uploaded their lookbook from their online webstore (www.cottonink-shop.com) and i must say, their collection is way beyond good, and also for a very reasonable price. This brand is like way too good to be true, because each of their collection are unique and also we could use 'em with many ways.
First started as multi-ways shawl creator, the duo Carline Darjanto and Ria Sarwono found success when their shawls has been the talk of the town with their famous signature style : classic, krey, fringe, and acid. Suddenly everyone were wearing their collection, and since then they started creating clothing line that also became people's favorite. With their affordable price, good quality, and also trendy-cut piece, cotton ink have become the big thing and i think they have prospect to sell around the world.
My opinion about their newest collection, two words : well done. I'm a little worried thou, i guess I'm gonna be bankrupt after the brightspot market event.

Words that makes the world go round

2010-06-29T21:33:00.000+07:00

XOX BETSEY

2010-06-29T20:55:00.000+07:00

If someone ask me which designer i like, i would have to say........................ Betsey Johnson.

Well what kind of girl who doesn't fall for this brand? Maybe a tight ass high maintenance one, but I'm sure that inside every grown-up women there are still a little girl inside of her. Betsey just help them to come out with her cute girly design and fresh colors. I even wore her collection to my senior prom. I remember saving all of my allowance to bought the dress, and believe me, it was worthed. Here are some of Betsey's collection from 2008-2009 summer/spring season:

The genius Mrs. Johnson

his name is started with capital R

2010-06-28T21:56:00.000+07:00

It all started two years and five months ago, when you first called me. I didn't know why, but i guess I could say that you really got me at hello. we're so clicked, just like that, and i knew at that moment, that you're worth fighting for.

The first date, you picked me up and didn't say a word when i sat on your car. i was worried that i was below your expectation. Until we got inside the cinema, and the movie was extremely sucked, then you started to make a joke, and oh boy that sure breaks the ice.

Third date, you're trying to grab my hand. although you seemed kinda hard to drive with one hand on the wheel while the other hand holding mine. We just couldn't stop laughing, i did some practical joke, locked you out of the car. We had a good time.

Fourth date. you first said you like me. But then you shook your head, and said you had fallen in love with me. you asked me if i wanted to be yours, and when i said yes, the look on your face : priceless.

Days after days we spent kissing, hugging laughing, fighting, cursing, but somehow we manage to stay together. you didn't gave up on me when i treated you the way i knew other boys couldn't take. you've fought for me on every harsh words I've said to you. there are days when i thought i couldn't afford losing you, but there are other darker days when i feel like i wanna snap your head and throw your body to the river.

I have become a better person today, it was all because of you. You've known my deepest darkest secret and you still stay by my side. You've know the dark side of me, the obsessive compulsive i have, the way i act, and you didn't judge me. You are my lover, my family, my best friend, my rival, my enemy, my shoulder to cry on, my walking dictionary, my tree of wisdom, my knight in shining armor, my partner in crime, my evil-genius twin, my whole life, my Romeo, my Clyde, my Sid, my Jack. And I would NEVER gave up on you.

Eight letters three words, you know what it is.

Thursday thoughts

2010-06-24T12:25:00.000+07:00

What's been going on in my life recently? Well, with my boyfriend having his long holiday, i am pretty much living the happiest time right now. He have so much time for me, we've been goin places, and shares tons of laughs, just like the old time. I wish things gonna stay like this, but i know, six months from now, we're gonna be thousands miles apart. Oh baby why do you took the international program in the first place? Didn't you know that i should see your face at least five times a week? Long Distance Relationship is gonna kill me slowly and painfully. I do hope the best for you, but sorry for being such a spoiled brat, i couldn't be apart from you for that long :(

Mon cheri amour

2010-06-18T09:13:00.000+07:00

With all this world cup euphoria, i wanna post something about my recent favorite player: Yoann Miguel Gourcuff, born 11 July 1986 is a French professional football player who currently plays for the French national team. He operates mainly as an attacking midfielder, but can also be utilized as a withdrawn striker. From what I've read, His playing style and ability have drawn comparisons to French legend Zinedine Zidane. It's too bad Gourcuff already have a girlfriend, because i would like to be his, if you know what i mean *wink wink*

Katpurrr

2010-06-16T13:43:00.000+07:00

My new girl crush: Katy Perry. I like her for many things: she's pretty, she's talented, she sings songs that talks about girl power, and from what I've heard, she's also have nice attitude. But what I most like about her, is her wicked sense of style.

keep this in mind

2010-06-11T10:58:00.001+07:00

some wise words for you

2010-05-26T14:33:00.000+07:00

For guys :
"Love your girl as if she's only 16. No longer a girl but not yet a woman. Love her with all your heart, set few rules and never break her heart."

For girls :
"Love your boy as if he's only 8. Let him play with his toys and let him go out with his playmates. Don't worry coz at the end of the day, he will come home to you. Just teach him to be honest."

HYPE rings

2010-05-23T19:30:00.001+07:00

I want these!! I want these so effing bad! :(

Defying gravity

2010-05-23T19:04:00.000+07:00

Something has changed within me
Something is not the same
I'm through with playing by the rules
Of someone else's game
Too late for second-guessing
Too late to go back to sleep
It's time to trust my instincts
Close my eyes: and leap!

It's time to try
Defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I am defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'm through accepting limits
''cause someone says they're so
Some things I cannot change
But till I try, I'll never know!
Too long I've been afraid of
Losing love I guess I've lost
Well, if that's love
It comes at much too high a cost!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you wont bring me down!

I'd sooner buy
Defying gravity
Kiss me goodbye
I'm defying gravity
I think I'll try
Defying gravity
And you won't bring me down!
bring me down!

I miss you

2010-05-23T01:03:00.000+07:00

I miss San Fransisco
I miss Bali
I miss Singapore
I miss highschool
I miss my 'geng cantik'
I miss white and grey uniform
I miss blek, eri, & osi
I miss sampoerna hide and seek with reva & mila
I miss running in alpus yard
I miss vodka every week
I miss every sweet 17 my friends had thrown
I miss dancing 'till dawn
I miss going out to a party of the year
I miss getting hit by boys
I miss being the talk of the town
I miss chitchat in msn
I miss my long hair
I miss my healthy body
I miss my youth
I miss my old life, the old me

I'm giving all that up to be with you, But why do I still stuck in a feeling of missing you?
Because you weren't here. Now, and will be for the next 2 years.